Past

Time flies the fastest when you're enjoying it the most.

I was thinking a lot on my drive home from city just now. I had all these words that I want to type. But now that I'm sitting infront of the computer, searching for those words again.

I just got home from the first Engineering Revue. It is a two-hour long play by the talented engineering students. They make fun of almost everybody, and different faculties.

I thought going to this would be a great memory since this is our last year in uni, and it's the first ever revue. The other faculties like Med School and Law School have in the past had many revues teasing the Engineering School. So now it's our turn to show them what we've got.

The past three years had been amazing. Got to know plenty of wonderful people. But as time goes by, people drift apart. I always don't like how I'm always so hung onto the past, thinking that things will never change. I was wrong.

I thought I had gotten over it when high school came to an end. I thought I would get over it that people move on. People move with the times. And here I am, stucked once again in the past. All alone.

To be honest, I was upset tonight right after revue. Somehow, things didn't quite go as planned. Though there wasn't even anything planned. But I thought we would at least be there together. It didn't feel the same anymore. It wasn't like how it used to be. People move on. There's new people that we have to meet. New experiences to be gained.

It may be a petty thing. I may be selfish. I may be too hung up on my own emotions. But is it wrong that the least we could've done was say goodbye?

Just for arguments sake, I should've been more friendly, and talk to the people whom I don't know. Get to know them too. But I wasn't quite in the mood tonight.

The whole time that I was looking forward to was to be in the circle of friends, people whom we know and comfortable with. It is after all a night to remember, making our mark as the group of engineering friends who went through a lot together.

I am being selfish. I can't help it.

When they sung the song at the end, I nearly teared up. I can't believe myself that I'm becoming so emotional. It is after all our final year in uni. To some, it may not mean anything, but to me, it marks the end of another chapter. I have still a couple more months to enjoy before the chapter comes to a close.

"You will always be an engineer."


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I shall post about my wisdom teeth surgery sometime later.

Have a good night's rest people. Tomorrow's a public holiday, so enjoy.
Good night.