Broken

Have you ever realise how much a single conversation can be so damaging?
Have you ever felt like you've been crushed just because of a single conversation?
Have you ever had such conversation with someone whom you've not even met?

What is maths?
What do you know about maths?
What do you think of the traditional, unique instructional method to teach maths?

What is different?
Excellence, good or bad?
Because being different, you're under the scrutiny of being marginal correct and hence it is not good enough.

So what do you study?
Is applying the instructional methods to obtain answers in maths different?

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The phone call I had yesterday was bad. It began only with a simple courtesy message for my sister from her tuition maths teacher. But instead, I got lectured on what maths is about. She challenged my understanding. She broke my confidence. She tore me apart just with that single conversation. I've never felt this way before having someone whom I've not even met telling me about what I'm doing now is not good enough just because I did not attend those after-school maths tuition.

It was a stupid conversation. I didn't know what she was trying to say. All I know was that there was full of sarcasm and critics. It was a mean conversation.

I thought there was some place I could hide. Or at least some one to cheer me up, to bring my confidence back.

But I got over it. I've learnt to stand up on my own again. I just have to be independent enough.

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Last night was fun. Full three hours of laser strike, five games, best ranked third in my team, fourteenth overall, one nearly chipped tooth.

And no, the tooth didn't chip or fall off. I'm just paranoid. The corner of the gun that hit right on my tooth with sharp piercing pain through my gums. At least it didn't bleed, so it was just right on the tooth.

Woke up this morning, having to brush my teeth avoiding that one tooth. Couldn't really eat or chew because once I close my teeth together it'll hurt. But it's getting better now. The pain is not as bad as earlier today.

I should go sleep soon. A very early wake up call tomorrow morning.

Good night and have a good long weekend.