Hyperventilation

The condition that results from rapid, deep breathing and is marked by dizziness, tingling, and numbness of the lips and hands and muscular - Source

I'm back in Malaysia. The past few days had been rough, even today. But I'm slightly happier since I managed to connect to the internet. Lots had happened in the past few days, and it's nothing too happy in particular.

Started off with my flight back, due to some error with the seat arrangements, I ended up sitting alone, whilst my travel companions got upgraded into Business Class. I sat next to this really nice lady with her husband. After 3 or so hours later, the lady had put on some hand lotion, which had a really strong smell. I have no idea what the smell was, but it was just so strong that I couldn't breathe it in. I covered myself my with my jacket thinking maybe it'll pass soon. But it was a bad idea. I began having trouble breathing, but there wasn't any fresh air that I can breathe in either (since the strong smell was still there). I couldn't take it anymore, and went up to my travel companions, and I broke down. It was the worse flight experience ever. I had never hyperventilated before, and now I know how it feels. It is really suffocating and is really difficult to even try to control the panic feeling. After a long and difficult time trying to calm myself down, thanks for all the concern and care, I felt better. But it was still rough. I don't like being on a turbulent flight. The headwind was up to 70km/h and the plane was just shaking so much, and it was hard enough to breathe, let alone having the fear of flying. Thank you so much for letting me rest and sit at your seat for the rest of the journey. Thank you for all the care and concern.

My Dad is making his way back to KL, from Bangkok via Hatyai, a 20 hour long train ride. Please let my dad come back today or tomorrow. All of this is due to the unforeseen happenings at Bangkok recently. But he's fine, everything is okay, so we're just waiting for him to come home.

Now that I'm back in KL, things aren't that great either. The house was unoccupied for the past year. So I'm alone at home now still trying to clean and clear up the house. My relatives had been very supportive and taking good care of me. Thank you all. I just feel so helpless since I can't do much on my own, had been depending on quite a lot of people this few days. So here I am, typing my heart out again. So many things that never go according to plan which make things seem even more upsetting. I suppose I just need time to get adjusted and used to everything again. It'll just be me and my internet in the house now. Have a good day.