Wonders

Funny that, I'm still trying to get use to the holidays, spending it on my own for the first time in two years. Haha.

I really really want to be able to look at all of this and laugh at it.

I want to laugh at your stoopid mistake.
I want to laugh at my determination in trying to hang onto the past.
I want to laugh at your silence, of you not doing anything.
I want to laugh at my will in trying to be happy.
I want to laugh at your way of handling it.
I want to laugh at my emotions that are playing tricks with me.
I want to laugh at your reason for letting go.
I want to laugh at my way of handling it.
I want to laugh at my reason for letting go.


I want to laugh at how we're lying to ourselves.
Or at least I think I'm the one lying to myself now.


Oh wells, I can't seem to stay away from typing here. I know there may be lots of different people reading this. People with different opinions, people with different understandings of the situation, people with different emotions. It's up to you to form your own judgment. But whatever it is, take the good and not the bad.

The weather forecast said it would be raining today. But it is just cloudy with blue skies and strong wind. I want to go out, but there is nowhere I can go.

Still another hour till the dough is ready for baking. I wonder how it will turn out.

~o~