It's been a while since I felt this dizzy. Not too sure if I'm drunk or what, at least I can still type. Had dinner with some family friends, uncles and aunties. Two bottles of red wine for a table of eight. They didn't drink much because the uncles had to drive. Guess where the rest of the red wine went. The red wines were good. One New Zealand, and the other Penfold, Australian wine. They were both good. I just keep drinking them, even the waitress asked me if I wanted more top up. The whole time during dinner, I was just looking at the red wine, wondering if there was more to drink. I wanted to drink more, the red wines were good. I just want to drink so much so that I can forget about things. I know it's not a good sign to be like that, but what can I do. For the moment, I really just want to drink and forget, at least I can be happy for a moment. I kept looking at the wine bottle to see if there were more to drink, the elders didn't drink much, someone had to finish the opened bottles, my younger sister can't drink, so yea, guess who finished the bottles. It actually felt good to be in this state, drowsy, yet slightly conscious. I'm not all that drunk, at least I can still come online and write about this. I'm tired, really tired from everything, just want to get over it and not be bothered by anything. If only it would wash away all that memories and words. I'm really sick of those emotions, why wouldn't they leave me alone. I really look forward to the day I would truly smile again.
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